Worst Nightmare Ever

yesterday I thought was the most happiest day in this year 

but it turn out to be the worst nightmare ever....

knowing someone from Johor, who always make me happy

and at the same give me a little bit hope to be my soulmate..

but he's not someone as expected to be..

Backbiting and gossiping - The angels know

All over the globe, we are living in a time where 

the devils has tools that he's never had before, EVER..

For the first time in human history you can backbite when you're alone,

because you have a cell phone and you can just call somebody up and start backbiting,

it used to be if you were alone you couldn't backbite or do these things

but now you can backbite on your chat room,

you could text and backbite much of what  goes on now,

on the internet is really ghibah (gossiping)..

Somebody puts something up on the internet and all these people

have to say these terrible things about them whether they deserve them or not,

they just feel compelled and it's all done with anonymity because they're cowards.

People wont come and say it to your face but they're cowards,

so they will do it with anonymity but the angels know who they are,

you can be killer164, ghost98 or whatever on the internet but the angels know that, 

you're Abdullah the son of Abdullah and they will write that down!

So, you cant get away with it, there's no anonymity in the unseen world.. 

aku jahat

aku jahat..

aku kejar syurga Allah sorang2..

walau jatuh, terseliuh, tersadung, tersepak, bergolek rebah,

aku tetap bangun walau memakan masa yang agak lama..

aku tetap juga cuba bangun...

tapi bangun aku, and usaha aku sorang2..

aku biar kawan aku yang x pernah bangun, 

yang pernah bersemangat nak bangun tapi jatuh,

yang banyak kali jatuh tapi susah nak bangun,

and yang bergolek jatuh yang xde usaha nak bangun tu camtu jer..

aku tinggal diorang kat belakang walau perjalanan aku masih belum jauh,

masih dekat ngan diorang, x jauh sangat tapi aku dah berlagak..

aku berlagak nak kejar surga Allah sorang2..

aku x ajak diorang, aku pergi, kejar dan terus kejar..

usaha sendiri, sorang2..

tapi semua tu x ke mana..

dalam diam aku judge sorang2..

judge diorang punya ibadah..

aku judge diorang punya hubungan ngan Yang Maha Esa..

aku jahat..

aku buat semua tu sorang2 pun 

xkan dapat kejar surga Allah yang x ternilai harganya tu,

sebab surga itu hanya layak untuk mereka usahanya bersama,

bukan berseorangan cam aku..

aku jahat..

kawan aku abaikan tanggungjawab diorang pada Yang Maha Esa,

aku biar camtu jer, pandang sebelah mata,

marah lam hati, kritik lam hati, benci lam diam..

aku pengecut dalam menegur kesilapan diorang...

aku jahat..

aku nampak salah diorang jer, jahat diorang..

aku x nampak jahat aku..

aku fikir aku lagi bagus dari diorang..

aku jahat...

sememangnya jahat..

They sold their religion - For this life

The last hour will not come, until you find yourself that if you were among

20 young men, more or less.. and found out that none of them fear Allah SWT,

then it is time for the hour.. What is he saying??

He's saying when you see young men, there are many of them, and they're

in large numbers, together hanging out in certain places or going together, and 

you cannot see any sign of fear of Allah SWT in their faces as a whole,

then wait for the hour to come..

We're talking about from the Ummah of The Prophet (SAW) what does this mean??

In the night clubs they go in groups, in mixed weddings, singing and dancing

they're in groups, going out to meet two or three girls, they're in groups,

a concert happens where a singer comes along or a dancer or whatever and they go in groups.

Not one or two, they go in groups!

They go to commit in decent acts, all night until fajr time.

Neglecting the Maghrib prayer, neglecting the Isya' prayer, neglecting the Fajr prayer,

because as soon as they get home they're too tired.

They got to give their body rights, so these young people full of energy and muscles 

and brains and strength, which Allah SWT has put you as the leader of this Ummah,

you are the responsible people, wasting their time, wasting their body,

wasting their energy, wasting their youth, wasting their health... on what???

On just fulfilling the desires of this body and smoking things that kill you,

burning their money on things that kill them, everywhere in the world they exist

brothers and sisters, the Messenger of Allah (SAW) said, when you see this, then await

for the last hour to come! 

Before the end of time, you will see this prevailing sign, what is it??

There will be affliction, affliction, affliction, trials.. test of hardship.

Affliction that are like smoke filling the air..

Darkness with dark clouds above you, and it will weaken the heart

of a person, just like his body weakens.

In the morning he is a believer, and by the evening he becomes a disbeliever,

so much confuse, deception, lies..

brothers and sisters in Islam, the Messenger (SAW) said. 

the reason is that they sell their character, their moral, 

and their religion because of a gain of this world, lust, desire, money, car , fame, fortune.. 

you name it.. 

'Compare with the life of the hereafter, the life of this world is nothing but a brief passing enjoyment'

your body

I hate the mirror sometimes,

because it only gives half of the story.

It'll never give a reflection of white blood cells,

tirelessly fighting of an over growth of bacteria and 

ceiling off the area exactly, instead you'll just see 

a white head and some acne!

See....

When you look at the mirror,

what did you grow up believing was beautiful,

did you believe that your barbie's doll body was amazing,

sorry to say,

but underneath that plastic smile, you will find plastic arteries

and plastic veins, heartless figurines created by heartless companies

created fictionalized fairy tales of what's beautiful, what's beautiful..

Is that one second your lungs takes a rest before you take your next breath.

What's beautiful..

Is each of the contracting muscles that pull the tips of your lips back enough until you smile..

What's beautiful..

The next time your souls in defeat asks the soles of feet, 

what is feels like to be stepped on your whole life?

...

boleh x nak cerita pasal dia??

dia, ya dia, si dia..

xpelah..

xnak cerita..

nanti orang kata masih mengharap..

oklah, bye2..

dia xde..

dah hilang..

tapi ada sekali dua..

kadang-kadang..

jarang-jarang..

tetap ingat..

tapi naper mesti ingat..

dah, dah, dah..

merepek je semua ni..

tapi sekarang dia yang lain..

sejuk mata memandang..

ramai peminat..

hahaaa..

merepek lagi..

merepek x sudah..

si D

23 oktober

semalam aku punya bufday..

tapi xde ape pun yang happy..

rancang nak jejalan, x boleh..

hujan x berhenti...

nak makan kek, x boleh..

kek xde orang bagi..

tunggu dia wish, xde jugak..

mungkin dia dah lupa..

xpelah, bufday jer pun..

umo meningkat..

tapi tetap sama..

paaboo bak kata korea..

tapi dosa x sama..

makin banyak..

iman makin nipis..

lagha makin melagha..

Ya Allah, bila nak berubah..

betul2 istiqamah..

cuba lagi maher, cuba..

walaupun dah banyak kali jatuh, 

cuba bangun walau x mampu..

cuba, cuba, dan cuba..

Allah pasti tolong..